The first Christmas party I ever hosted was disastrous. I took half the day off work to get things ready for the soiree. I figured that would give me enough time to shop, clean, bake, decorate, and get myself ready before the first guests arrived precisely at 6 o’clock. Reality, however, was quite different.
I ended up having to go to several grocery stores, multiple items I planned on baking never made it into the oven, the fondue didn’t cook properly, and I didn’t get out of the shower until after our first guests arrived. Not to mention I had planned for about 25 people (most of whom had RSVP-ed), only 5 showed up, and one of them because Ben called and said there was chocolate covered bacon.
I was a rejected mess: the party I had put so much time, effort, and money into had failed.
But, sure enough, the next fall I began my preparations for another Christmas party. I decided to scale it down, de-fancify, and lower my expectations. Guess what? Five people came. And there wasn’t even chocolate covered bacon.
You would think that after two seemingly failed attempts to host a party I would throw in the towel, but I did no such thing. For our third party, I revamped my outlook, decided to have an open house, and continued to plan even though the fear of rejection once again was very, very close at hand. I sent out numerous invitations, hoping to at least double my previous years guests and had about 45 people show up over a span of 5 hours in our 800 sq foot apartment.
Had I given up after my botched first attempt at hosting, I never would have realized that I was capable of much more than my experience had told me.
Zerubbabel was more than just a cool name. He led the first group of Jews back to Israel from their Babylonian captivity and under his rule, the second temple was built. He is mentioned in multiple books in the Bible and is even part of Jesus’ lineage! He was kind of a big deal.
Zechariah 4:6-10 (NLT) speaks about this rock star:
“Then he said to me, “This is what the Lord says to Zerubbabel: It is not by force nor by strength, but by my Spirit, says the Lord of Heaven’s Armies. Nothing, not even a mighty mountain, will stand in Zerubbabel’s way; it will become a level plain before him! And when Zerubbabel sets the final stone of the Temple in place, the people will shout: ‘May God bless it! May God bless it!’”
Then another message came to me from the Lord: “Zerubbabel is the one who laid the foundation of this Temple, and he will complete it. Then you will know that the Lord of Heaven’s Armies has sent me. Do not despise these small beginnings, for the Lord rejoices to see the work begin, to see the plumb line in Zerubbabel’s hand.”
The Lord said that nothing would be able to stand in Zerubbabel’s way; what a great promise! But, it is important to remember that, like his kinsman, Big Z started out as a no name captive. Just like the temple had to start out with just one stone, Z started out with a small beginning of his own, and yet is advised to not disregard those humble beginnings.
As a young,fresh off the field twenty-four year old, the world was at my fingertips. I was recently engaged to the man of my dreams, on a spiritual high from my time in missions, and ready to receive everything that God had placed in my heart for my life. I fully intended on all that to happen right away. I had expected that by the time I was 30 (which will happen this April), I would own my own successful coffee shop, have a book or two published , and have a house constantly filled with guests.
Six years down the line, my life has looked very, very different…
For several years I dreamed with God about someday opening a ministry-focused coffee shop. This passion converged all of my strengths, talents, dreams, and seemed to be a seamless fit for my life and God’s Kingdom. While the passion still exists, the dream, however, has shifted along with my priorities. It has morphed into a more supportive role within Ben’s ministry, still eventually involving coffee, and the leading role as our family’s homemaker and caretaker.
My world is now very small, my ministry focused on my family, and hopes have become more grounded in God’s word (i.e. realistic). Even though there are some days when I wish all my grandiose dreams had come to pass, I am now content with the way my life has turned out and the path I seem to be on. In fact, I wouldn’t change it at all.
I am not saying that all the big plans I had for myself as a 20-something year old won’t happen, in fact I would still welcome them with open arms, but I know that God has a plan for me and my seemingly small present. I have learned to not despise these little moments that have turned into years of “insignificance”, but accept that even in my obscurity, I am right where I need to be.
Sometimes we get so focused on what’s ahead that we fail to see how God is at work right where we are. I have an amazing husband and marriage. My kids are healthy, well behaved, and adorable. I have a fantastic family, friends, and yes, even in-laws. I am in a position to serve others in a capacity I have never been in before. My relationship with God and understanding of His creation is consistently growing, strengthening, and being challenged.
I may have small beginnings, but they are good ones. Just like my paltry first Christmas party, God is still reminding me to not give up, to keep trying, and eventually I’ll have a house full of guests.
Maybe, just maybe, He wants to remind you of that too.